Take the L and learn. I dabbled in this shit last year and while I only lost $1k I arrived at the same conclusion you have now reached: we will never win the trading game.
Unless you have teams of professional analysts and complex computer models that take thousands of instantaneously fed data points and use them to make numerous, rapid, micro-second trades, you're just gambling. You can make thousands of dollars in the short term if you are lucky but the market will gobble that back up and more.
Even the gurus who are trying to "give back" by offering courses understand there are only momentary wins in between substantial losses, and the only profit the average Joe can makes in the trading world is by selling millionaire-trader dreams to idiots.
Don't be sad. Some have lost so much they offed themselves. You aren't there yet. Take the loss and never look back.