The fact that I almost bought 10x of 9/12 310c for ORCL is making me want to fuckinf just give up on life. It was the last bit of dry powder I had left really and I figured why the fuck not...and I ultimately chose to hold out...is going to haunt mr and maybe be the final nail in my casket. What should have been a wtf ever moment of about $120 woild have been over a 9,600% gain as it sits in my wqtchlist right now. It would have legit saved so much of my life and instead makes ke hate my existence even more. I have never felt so much of a failure ajd like I just can't win as I do right now. I am just speechless and beside myself in darkness now. Im at a total fucking loss.

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